Sirf Tumahre Liye

Kya kahoon uske barein main, woh kaisa hai,
pehli baar jo dekhe, uska ashiq ho jaye,
ab khud hi samajh lije,
mera mehboob aisa hai.

Aya tha meri zindagi main, dost bankar,
sanse ban gaya hai meri, ik rishte ko jorrkar.
Main khush kaise rahoon, har pal yehi sochta hai
Chehre par ik hasi ke liye, kuchh bhi kar guzarta hai.

Sama raha hai mere andar is qadar,
na jane kahan se aya hai mera dilbar.
Hum to mar hi mittain hain tumhare liye,
mang kar dekho, jan bhi de jayenge bina dar.

Ab aur na satayo aur ajao hamare pass,
jaise main ayi thi sat samundar par se tumhare pass.

My Days without my partner - My Life

I never thought a day would come when I will get a news that I have to stay without Guggs for one and a half months. I never ever thought in my wildest dreams. Guggs promised me that wherever he will go, he will take me along with him.But whatever you please, you dream, might not get fulfilled and I experienced that on May 7th 2006. On that day, Guggs told me that he has to go to Germany for fewdays. Few days could mean one and a half months, I never knew that.I was happy as well as said when I got to know about this. It wasn't easy for any of us to digest this and even think about it. How we will stay without each other for "Few Days" :) . But I knew that we have to. The day 15th May 2006 arrived when he left for Germany. Was not able to go to airport as well to see him off as his flight was late at night and taxi's are not very safe in Bangalore.Wanted to stop him but couldn't. Wanted to go with him but couldn't.
Then started my days of living without him, who is my life, my everything.Everyday became a normal routine of going to office and coming back. It felt that no life was left in me. Life stopped for me. I was alive just to see him again. No excitement of any kind was left inside me.I used to think about him every moment even when I was busy in work. and when I wasn't so busy, then he came to my mind twice every moment.I was all alone without him . I tried to convince myself that physical presence is not everything but I couldn't drag it for a long time. My mom and his mom stayed with me for some time and I used to be very bubbly in front of them. They never came to know about the pain in my heart which was increasing by each passing day.
Time was nearing and July 3rd was just 2 weeks from now. I got another news. His stay got extended till Aug 15th. I was shattered. I wanted to die. Because it would be another 1 and a half months again before I could see him, touch him, lie on his shoulders and relax.I couldn't take this news. Guggs came with a solution that he would come back on 15th July and then go back after a week and then come back on Aug 15th. This made me relax a bit but the loneliness increased beyond limits. Each day didn't pass by without me crying for him.
Its getting lot jaanu. Please come back. I cant live without u.Please come back.